New Challenge!

So instead of starting at the New Year, I've decided to start NOW on my challenge.  

Sunday, December 13, 2020.

I'm going to start recording my miles on my recumbent bike and when I go for walks. At first, most of my miles will be on my bike. I'm not walking well right now, unless I have my feet & ankles wrapped.  Being on my bike is better for me right now. I only do 1-2 miles at a time, right now, but I know I will get longer over time. 

So for today, I did 2 miles. 

Im still not sure what my final goal will be,  but I will figure it out before New Year's. Right now I'll just keep track.....

2 miles 

350

I know I can... Right?!

Wow... so it's been too long since I have posted anything. In these past years I have not been well...

I have totally gained weight back PLUS MORE. I am at my heaviest I have ever been in my life. I believe I am heavier than I was when pregnant. I totally wish I could claim to be pregnant,  but No. Sorry...
So when you look at me, yes that's just my fatness... I carry most of my weight in my belly so I look pregnant. But then, I've also got neck, face, arm... EVERYWHERE FAT. 

SOOO you're probably asking, what are you going to do about it?

Well....

I keep making plans & then the day comes & I don't start. I chicken out. I feel miserable. I want to fit in my clothes, but food... sweets.... I have an addiction. My portion control is outta control. It's embarrassing and ridiculous.

I think I can, I think I can

...NO....

I KNOW I CAN, I KNOW I CAN!

I found myself a recumbent bike online & bought it. I can only do so much on it...but I bike as long as I can. I could do more, but... 

So here's more of my problem... I've been having chest pain & shortness of breath. I'm either having severe panic attacks or something is going on with my heart. I go see heart doc in January. I've already worn a 3 day heart monitor & the results from that got me a referral to heart specialist. 

So yeah... not good at moment. Anxiety is at all time high which also makes me feel like overeating & not feeling like being active at all. 

Fingers crossed and say a prayer that I can get back to challenging myself !

No Loss, No Gain....

So I just finished another 2 day cleanse.
6:30 am...I weighed myself.

I didn't loose anything.
I didn't gain anything.

SIGH.

I started to cry when I went to lay back down in bed. My whole last week ran through my mind. What did I eat that I shouldn't have? Too much sweets? Not enough exercise?
Why can't I loose like these other girls on FB & Instagram who are posting flat belly pics and before/after pics in there bathing suits??
I have ALMOST changed my eating habits and I try to do at least 30 min workout a day. Even if it's just walking in place in my living room (because some days are just hard...).
Why do I have to struggle? Why can't my progress show the same?

I want To scream WHY?!?!

I really don't want the before/after pics. I just want this weight off.  I want my life back. I want to be able to move, have more energy, feel comfortable when someone wants to take my picture...

Today is a new day. I will not let last week worry me. I'm going to try harder... I got this.

Almost 2 months....

It's been almost 2 months since I started my health challenge.
I don't like to call it a "diet" because I'm not really on one. I'm making a lifestyle change. It's TOTALLY different.

To me, I starve when I diet and then I mess up & quit. I try really hard and get NO WHERE.

My health challenge has taught me SOOOO much. I have learned A LOT about myself.

Yes I've been made fun of and you all think I'm crazy when I tell you what I've been doing. BUT I've gotta go through the hard stuff to get where it CAN be easy for me.
And I'm getting there.

One thing I will say.... I have NOT starved myself. Just because I don't eat a meal one day and have a shake or I don't eat on my "cleanse days" .... I've never been hungry. I've never starved myself. I eat snacks.
I'm on an eating schedule.
It works for me.
It COULD work for you too, if you want to try/give it a chance.  But you have to WANT it.

I haven't weighed myself in over a week but I've lost 28 pounds. It may not seem like much to you but for me, since April 24...

I've had maybe 2 headaches*
No lower back pain**
More energy than before
I actually rode my bike for the 1st time in years!
I count calories and totally enjoy/appreciate my chocolate snacks lol
I've met a new friend who supports me and I can text/call her anytime
Some of my clothes are not "so tight" anymore :)
I'm gaining confidence in myself.

*I usually get a headache or migraine at least 1-2x a week...
**I almost ALWAYS wake up with low back pain. No matter how I sleep, it was always an Aleve/Ice my back every morning.

So more on my back pain... I started having more pain the past 2 days. I have been using my "stepper" in the living room and I found a step routine on YouTube I enjoy doing. So with doing that, I am using my muscles more and they aren't used to being used this much so now I'm going through process of building them back up and getting them used to being used...

It sucks trying to loose weight.
And honestly, it totally sucks trying to be healthy lol
Why can't this be easy?

Day 2

10, 596 steps!

WOWZA!!

it's so easy getting my steps in when I work at setting up the rummage sale in the HOT gym. I'm hoping that I'm sweating off some pounds too while I'm in there lol
Tomorrow I'm taking a day off from setting things up so we'll see how I do...I plan on being lazy because my whole body hurts. Bending and picking things up have taken their toll on my back and legs. Not to mention my ankle has been swollen every day too...ugh.
Being fat and getting older sucks....

It's been a YEAR?!

Wow.
It's already August 1. School is about to start again. Along with all the stress of morning routines, where uniforms & shoes are each morning, and juggling my ME time and time spent volunteering(mostly)/working at the school. And yes, I tend to put others/the schools needs b4 my own.

I'm hoping to get better with this. I need to find myself again. I have become a person I'm not so familiar with...emotionally & physically. There's going to be A LOT of changes coming and I'm hoping that I can keep them up.

Today, August 1, I walked 9,856. It was pretty easy because I'm setting up the school rummage sale this week.
So my goal is to walk 248,000 steps this month. Or 117 miles ;)
That's 8,000 steps a day if you break it down.

I've got to get moving. It's been really HOT this summer and I think I've gained weight from not doing much. It's embarrassing when people think you're pregnant and you have to embarrass them too by saying, OH NO! I've just gained a lot of belly weight recently. No chance of that happening. Sorry!!!
And I'm done not being able to fit in some of my clothes.

Sigh

So I'm getting back on my Plexus also. I tried to start it a few months ago but haven't been doing it daily. Well, it's back to it now. Starting my day with my PINK drink, Slim, and ending with my Pro Bio.
AND lots and lots of WATER!!

So let's do this!

August Challenges

So I haven't been keeping up with my miles much on here but thanks to my lovely phone, it has tracked most of my mileage for me. I'm closer to my goal than I thought I'd be :) 

+140.16/300

I've got a loooooong way to go but I'm not going to stop trying.

So I'm a part of this weightloss group and someone posted this August challenge. 

It's perfect for me bc of my back probs. I can't really do much right now. 

Soo who wants to do it with me? 

I'm still goin to walk when I can and keep track of my miles with my phone so hopefully taking the extra 10 minutes will do some good :)