Venting....

Let's get REAL....

I know I say & do things without thinking, but that's JUST ME. As I'm "growing up" & def since I've turned 30, I'm noticing a change in myself. I don't care much what others think if me. Of course I have my days, but not so much anymore. 

SOO in saying this, if I ever say anything that offends or upsets you, I honestly don't mean it lol I'm JUST BEING HONEST.  

It's SOO hard keeping my opinion to myself. This is a problem. Esp when I find out I offended someone close to me & now they judge & think less of me. But I guess if they DONT understand, they are not worth worrying over & being in my life. 

On a good note.....the FEW close friends I have are AMAZING. I'm blessed to have them :)

Try Again?

180/300

SOO I only got a little halfway over my goal. I blame my laziness when summer started.

Excuses- I didn't want to take the kids with me to the Y bc they are too old for 2hr babysitting & ball rooms only open in evenings, I enjoyed our 1 mile walks out the road from the house but drivers are CRAZY, & no point in taking kids to park bc they just want to PLAY. And I'm def not leaving them alone. 

SIGH

I look back & wish I would've kept pushing myself. Think of what I could've accomplished if I kept it up! I was on a roll! 

Just goes to show ya that everyone fails at something. If you can't do it right the first time, TRY AGAIN. 

SOO yeah, I'm here to tell you all....I'm going to try again. I have to do something. Ted even said he'll go in evenings with me & maybe do a class! Haha We'll see on that one ;)

I might do Weight Watchers again. This time with my sis. I lost a lot of weight after having Cody doing it but then Emma came along! So we'll see & I'll for sure blog about it. I miss sharing my ups & downs lol

I'm a worrier!

150/300

I've not been walking much, but when I do I haven't been posting! 

I'm WAY behind on my goal....so all of you all who doubted me, well, there ya go. You were right so go gloat somewhere else please. 

I'm unsure if I want to give myself a goal for next year. I don't want to fail again. 

But the year isn't over yet & we still have our BIG trip coming up so maybe I'll get some mileage in then. 

Ya never know, but I'm bummed bc I didn't push myself. Honestly I'm not going to let it get me down because I'm just NOT a perfect/athletic person. I worry WAY too much about my weight, what others think, blah blah blah....and I need to just start enjoying my life. That's a goal for next year...ENJOY YOUR LIFE. 

Camping!

136.7/300

We did A LOT of walking past 2 days at Camp Arrowhead for Boy Scout camping! I'm giving myself 3 miles. I'm sure we walked more, but I just lost track. 

The kids got to shoot BB guns, bow & arrow and go fishing. We even camped out in 40 degree temps....maybe even cooler than that! 

But just being able to give my kids and our Cub Scouts this experience was TOTALLY worth it! 

I will need my Aleve & my heating blanket on my back tonight & tomorrow tho lol

I'm ready for more camping tho! Nothing like watching my kids have fun & enjoy being outdoors :)

Chilly walk

Well I didn't get to do water Zumba this morning bc I had to take my oldest child to the dr. He's been sick for about 3 weeks now w/on & off fever, LOTS of coughing & feeling crummy. But he was a trooper & kept goin to work! 

Oh yeah, I'm talking about Ted... LOL 

But he's got good meds now so hopefully he'll get better quick! 

We took advantage of the nice/chilly evening & took a family walk! Even Rufus & Marki joined us :) 

+1.62

133.7/300

Before & after...

My friend Mary from school has invited me to water Zumba this morning. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE water Zumba but I DONT WANNA GO!! My body hurts already, I feel a headache coming on, I barely got sleep last night bc Ted coughing & Emma coming over & kicking me most of night....AAHHHHH!!! 

It's been WEEKS since I've been to the Y. It's been that long since I've been motivated to do ANYTHING toward my goal for the year. I've gained all my weight BACK that I lost....I'm just frustrated!!! 

Why is this so stinking hard?!

Why can't I loose weight easier?!

Why do I always feel judged by EVERYONE around me?! 

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Ok so that is a little embarrassing to read, but it's real. Totally shows I'm not perfect. But it was EXACTLY how I felt this morning. It shows how stinking WHINY I am too lol 

BUT!!!! I went to water Zumba! And I even stayed for the toning class after!! 2 hours of being in the water was...just AWESOME. I love swimming. It reminded me of how young & engerized it makes me feel! And no it wasn't because of all the older (than me) ladies in the class with me ;) 

I am SOO thankful for Mary being my motivator today! I've got some amazingly awesome friends in my life :)

132.08

Imma slacker ;)

Soo yeah. i have totally been SLACKING on my walking. I have walked tho, a couple times with the kids out the road & even jogged to try & keep up w/Ted helping Cody ride his bike w/no training wheels. 

I need motivation. 

My excuse? I'm EXHAUSTED. I've got a lot going on...but that shouldn't stop me. I know. I'm hoping to get some big miles in soon tho! My cooler weather is coming back:) 

130.08/300