4 miles

10/100

I only did 4 miles this week. 

December 21 was the 1st day of Winter. 

My motivation to do ANYTHING has gone out the window. My right ankle is not doing great. Wrapping it is the only relief I get with it. It sucks. 

I've been doing better with my eating. Not snacking as much & not over doing it with sweets... I normally go crazy during the holidays on candy & cookies. 

Hopefully I'll do better this week.

wishing ...

6/100

2 more miles today on my bike.

Not much to say today. 

Wish I had more energy & more motivation to do more. I wish my body didn't hurt so much. I wish I could breathe normal. 

I'll get there  ....

100!

To make it different, I'm going to do my challenge by seasons.

So I kinda started early for Winter, but oh well..that's ok... lol

So now until March 20.. 100 miles.

There are 93 days ... I can do that ... right? 

So I have not been feeling that great the past couple days. My anxiety is kicking my booty. BUT today I did do 2 miles! It's not much, but it's something. 

4/100

I can do this. Tomorrow is another day. A new day. I can be motivated to do this. 

New Challenge!

So instead of starting at the New Year, I've decided to start NOW on my challenge.  

Sunday, December 13, 2020.

I'm going to start recording my miles on my recumbent bike and when I go for walks. At first, most of my miles will be on my bike. I'm not walking well right now, unless I have my feet & ankles wrapped.  Being on my bike is better for me right now. I only do 1-2 miles at a time, right now, but I know I will get longer over time. 

So for today, I did 2 miles. 

Im still not sure what my final goal will be,  but I will figure it out before New Year's. Right now I'll just keep track.....

2 miles 

350

I know I can... Right?!

Wow... so it's been too long since I have posted anything. In these past years I have not been well...

I have totally gained weight back PLUS MORE. I am at my heaviest I have ever been in my life. I believe I am heavier than I was when pregnant. I totally wish I could claim to be pregnant,  but No. Sorry...
So when you look at me, yes that's just my fatness... I carry most of my weight in my belly so I look pregnant. But then, I've also got neck, face, arm... EVERYWHERE FAT. 

SOOO you're probably asking, what are you going to do about it?

Well....

I keep making plans & then the day comes & I don't start. I chicken out. I feel miserable. I want to fit in my clothes, but food... sweets.... I have an addiction. My portion control is outta control. It's embarrassing and ridiculous.

I think I can, I think I can

...NO....

I KNOW I CAN, I KNOW I CAN!

I found myself a recumbent bike online & bought it. I can only do so much on it...but I bike as long as I can. I could do more, but... 

So here's more of my problem... I've been having chest pain & shortness of breath. I'm either having severe panic attacks or something is going on with my heart. I go see heart doc in January. I've already worn a 3 day heart monitor & the results from that got me a referral to heart specialist. 

So yeah... not good at moment. Anxiety is at all time high which also makes me feel like overeating & not feeling like being active at all. 

Fingers crossed and say a prayer that I can get back to challenging myself !